new job rules!!!! ive been on my computer all day and got paid to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so its been a few days. the more i think about this shit site the more i think its turning me into a woman pansy ass writing about my life. i dont think im that important for anyone to read.

today was a regular day. i ...woke up in a daze looking and feeling like shit.ate well for the day ....besides some chicken eggroles i completely fucked up.they tasted horrible.

i got mad at about..7ish for various reasons and did maybe 8 sets of curls, some push ups too. i feel stronger if that interest u.

now im sitting in my room watching a Gears of war install on my computer. its almost done.

tomorrow i will be up at 0530 to get down with the family at a wall building function. the reason behind this early rise is because my grandmas house always gets flooded during the monsoon. this wall with prevent that.

i think after im done sampling gears of war im going to watch snl.

i will talk to you later. good bye

i have this pain like in my right side..its like a sharp stabbing.

i dont know what happened today but i realized that have re-centered myself.

its strange how we make these plans to better i self and grow in our heads and we end up forgetting everything.

but tonight i re-centered? ive been going to outside in the late afternoon and watching the day slip away usually with my computer on my lap.

i dont know tho. its a different things are different. for now. but i know that i will regress into old tendencies

so i bought the fucking computer on sunday


he just sent me a message hes sending the unit out tomorrow....MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!

i was chilling outside hoping the ups dude would show up but fuck no

so i think it will now be here on .....i dont know tuesday and wednesday

i paid the minute it ended but i bet that bitch has spent some of the bank




i seem like an angry person. now that i read the above

ccr is burning a scar  in my ear.

OOOH that red white blue!



IT AINT ME

fuck the senator


I AINT GOT NO SILVER SPOON

IT AINT ME

I AINT NO FORTUNATE ONE.....


ride that rift

send me to war?

i will give more more more

but it aint me

i have a pain on the left side of my brain. right at the temple.

i feel like laying the hamuck we have out back..but mosquitoes will murder me.

im feeling worried about the odds of me getting the job. Serina's text message had both good and bad points ...the good point is that the manager doesnt want that suck up from my school...but she is have another interview ...and the worst fucking part about it is that she is interviewing a girl who is friends with the managers best friend so im pretty fucking bummed that i might not get the job ....

i want to eat something ....if i could eat anything i want i would have the chicken fettichini alfredo from the OG and some salad and some sticks...i would eat so much of that.. its one of those nights when i want to eat what i dont have so that sucks ass.

on top of that shit im watching hells kitchen ...so they are making some good pasta stuff

its only been like 2 days and i want my dam computer to come already...fucking ebay in its stupidity doesnt tell the buyer if the item is sent....so im in the fucking dark which sucks donkey ass.

god i want that pasta

im sure my brain is just stressing plus i havnt had that much water today. if i get that job im going to go out the OG

you know...theres alot of shit i want..

hum heres what i would buy if i got the job.

1...id save up for a nicer car
2...misc computer shit....nice lcd.
3...a new tv for my room
4...pay bills
5...school
6...gas haha 4 buck a gallon fuck
 
i think the rest of the shit is just fucking wants

i think im done writing now. anyother shit i would have to think about

for a while ive been looking for a nice gaming desktop for super super cheap. and i won one on ebay for about 180 the other day. it has 1.25 gigs of ram in it and i cant wait for it to get here. im already scouting other auctions for and extra gig stick. im not a big fan of fansy lights and shit but it does have some that glow blue so i guess that nots bad. it has a intel chip over clock to 3.19 dual core ...lets see it has 2 hard drives one 40 gig and the others a 250 gig i think...it has 256 mb graphics card  640watt  when i get it here in a few days i will put up some pics for you to see. i need to ....clean the shit out of my desk and find a dvi to vga adaptor later too. shit then i need a keyboard with a usb interface. ...i need alot of shit

haha i hope i get taht job i applied for more money for fun!

my pops woke me up this morning because they were having a recongnition ceramony for the safe return of all 1st/285th attack squadreon from Afghanistan.

it was kind of a bitch to get up at 630 but complaining is for bitches.
i got dressed:blue jeans, a red shirt with german writing and a nice beer jug in the middle. and a military hat.

i decided to skip breakfast....what i was thinking ..i have no idea. and to just take a bottle of water with me.

my pops had tried to awaken my brother but he was just too much of a lazy ass to give a fuck so he kept sleeping.

im not around to wipe noses and kiss asses so i wasnt going to wake him up.

i left and cruised down valencia listening to Hendrix, and other rock legends.

as i was coming down the road i saw the entrence to the pima air and space meusem and there was a pig in a suv radaring my ass. 8 in the fucking morning and he had nothing better to do.

i parked..walk and grabed a seat. for next to hours i listened to stories of combat missions and the top brass smiliing and congragulating each other.

I was sitting in front of a very interesting woman. As a gift from the Army for all those family members who'have had to endure multiple deployment they were given a beautiful wooden clock----to which i heard her reply "GREAT now i can count all the hours you took from us"

i got a good laugh out of her and that joke helped me get through the rest of the ceremony.

By this time my stumach was at full roar but it really didnt matter we were all clapping at least once a minute which drowned out any mones my weak stumach could release. 

After the first ceremony the 285th was broken down into companies and then each soldier recieved their awards in the comfort of another hanger.  I saw sargent Fisher, im not sure if he remembers me. but i always get a kick of how funny his family dresses for such an occasion. His wife resembles Barbie after a hard life in middle america. Once long beautiful blond hair it is now a messy tangle of off color cigerette smelling frizzy delight.  when i went to his house in mesa arizona i dont think she was around but i remember seeing his kids they were pretty interesting looking. trouble makers and proud of it. i didnt see any of them today i was to busy going over in my mind what sargent fisher had done for me. he gave me a copy of winturnals and enterprize edition of xp what a great dude he also saved my data from being completely lost to the digital scrap world. I he told me the nessesary things i needed to know to ensure that if i ever had a problem with my pc that there is always hope and that i should ALWAYS back up important data.

After Eco and Charlie went up it was time to leave. My brother called me a few times "where are u ?". ..."im at the ceremony ....where your ass should be...im the only fucking person here to support dad..im sitting with 5 empty seats around me" 

"well...you should of woken me up"

"we did you didnt get up"

i dont know. maybe one day he'll grow up but im not going to hold my fucking breath.

moms still sick as a homeless dog. coughing a weezing and shit. " i think i have broncitis" she says ...."dont you think you should go to the hospital to see a doctor?"....."NO fuck that! i aint going to know fucking hospital"....

i dont know what the fuck shes scared of. if she wants to suffer then thats her shit. but if i get sick ....fuck im going to get sitck.

after eating pizza when i got home i feel asleep on my bed. woke up 4 hours later feeling like complete ass. i hate mid day sleeping.

my mom told me her friend from ....well she lives pretty dam close to mexico, Carmen was coming over to drop off some fruit freshy picked. eventually she showed up and my dam dog wouldnt shut up. she was here for less then 2 min i saw her daughter whos like 16 now i think going on 17 i remember because i went to the Cince. she had a cool blanket to to give to my nana ...who just turned 70.

now here i am sitting on the couch listening to my dad say "fucking fucker shit ass bitch"

he lost some sort of writting pad the has very very fucking important numbers on it. ...so im sure as soon as i am done writing this sentence i will be the one to fucking step up and find this fucking writing pad.

hi, im adam